Releasing What No Longer Serves You
Friday, December 30, 2011 at 1:34PM I realize I spend a lot of time writing about getting rid of things...if you follow my Facebook or Twitter Feeds, you know this to be true. If you are a client of mine, you know that you've heard this from my mouth...a lot.
When I think about how we are as a society, how we accumulate so much stuff, and how much waste we have from the things we seemingly cannot "live without," I am burdened. Our lives get so complicated. So involved. So...cluttered.
My own space is pretty free of stuff...however there is a small space that harbors some serious negative energy...an infinitely tiny space that holds a season of pain and anxiety. This space is on my computer. Buried in this folder and that folder...way back in a nook...I have kept some letters and emails for several years. I don't look at them, but I know they are there...I know what they say...I know the emotional energy that is tied into every word that was written.
These letters encompass a relationship that was devastating to me...so hurtful that it crushed me. I remember the circumstances and I remember, for the first time in my life, feeling my blood run cold. Yes, it can actually happen! Four years have passed, and I am supposed to be healed...I am supposed to have released it and I am supposed to have forgiven those involved. I try, it is very hard, and there are definitely times when an unknown trigger sets me off and makes all that energy rear it's ugly head.
Just the other day, these letters/emails came into my thoughts...usually I push them away and don't reread the notes. As I sat in front of my laptop, my fingers hovering over the touchpad...I was trying to decide if I wanted to revisit that pain...do I? Do I not? Shall I? Shall I pass? I decided that the mere fact that these notes, this data, this analog information was seriously negative...and so what if I didn't look at it daily (thank goodness!), it was still THERE...or HERE...on my laptop...in that dark little corner...where it could see me and energetically impact me, but I couldn't see it unless I went searching. I knew it was there...always there.
So, I went to the folder, within the folder, and I opened the first piece. I read it, and again my blood ran cold as the memories rushed me. I opened the 2nd, 3rd and 4th, and I read them all. I selected each piece and moved my cursor to the DELETE button...and once again, my hand hovered over the track pad...finger poised to tap and thereby delete and erase all the anxiety, hurt and negative energy into the bin. Why was there such a hesitancy to get rid of it? Why did I feel the need to keep this pain close, yet hidden?
I decided that I really didn't want this energy...in any format...coming over to the new year. 2012 is supposed to be an awakening of a year for me...many intuitives have told me this over the past 12 years. I really don't want any crap to muck up my really great year (finally!) I deleted the files, and felt a small wave of relief. Not a huge weight off my shoulders, but a bit lighter in the heart.
And as I share this with you, I realize that it is still in my computer's trash can...so perhaps emptying the trash will release the weight on my shoulders.
I share this intimate moment with you to remind you that our electronics are radiating energy...and when you've got negative things on your computer, on your phone, etc...that energy is even more powerful. This was my version of writing, printing, reading and burning to let go and forgive.
I need to go empty that trash...you should too.
I wish you a magical and powerful 2012.
Namaste.
~Dana


